Sometimes I may question, but one thing for sure is my love for Him will never fade.

So I've been thinking a lot about things that don't ever seem to make sense to us. Maybe they aren't supposed to make sense. Actually, I know that they aren't. As a human we can only grasp smaller concepts. God doesn't need us understanding every single deatail about our life. He doesn't promise to make any of it easy for us and he never promises that there is going to be a tomorrow, but He does promise that we will live with Him eternally as long as we love as He does. It's hard to do so, especially when life gets hard, but it means the most when you don't give up after so much stuff is thrown your way. Even when you feel out of touch, all you can really do is keep trucking.

I'm not sure if it's the stress of being a senior in high school, picking a college, finding scholarships, applying for scholarships, or just recent events, but I personally have felt completely out of touch with My Makers. I pray, constantly. I read my Bible, nightly. I'm not sure why I feel so lost, but I do. I start thinking and I'm sure it's recent events. The loss of two students at our school and the confusion that comes with pain and death. Dear friends were taken from us and this world way before their time and it's left all of us wondering "what's next"? Well at least some of us that I know of are wondering it. What's after this life? Will we look the same in Heaven or will we just be balls of energy? Will we love our loved ones differently, like our husband/wife and children... will they have a separate type of love or will it just be a mutual feeling of love between us all? There are so many questions that will remain unanswered until God calls us up, but He gives us time to do the things that we need to do in life. To make our lives count. And despite what we may think, it isn't about making ourselves happy, it's about loving others and making others happy the way He taught us to. That's one thing I'm sure of.

God also gives us the strength we need to take on everything. If you decide to not avoid the pain in your life and to actually take it on, then you will be ready to do so. God gives us the strength to be ready. You also need to be ready for disappointment, because though it does get better, it will get worse first. Even though it gets worse, He promises that it DOES get better.

Anyway, I'm going to stop ranting and leave you with advice from a good friend of mine by the name of Adrian Thomas:
"Simply make the decision to let Him be in your life and nothing else matters. Live for Him every moment of your life and keep your eyes on the prize which is eternal happiness and health in Heaven with your loved ones."