Final: Two Blue Crosses

Words are so hard to find these days.
When it seems that the tears just take their place.
You're loved by the people who wont let your memory fade.
You're watching over us.
Days keep going by. Some go faster, some seem slow.
And it's when long days like today come to a peaceful end that I know we have guardian angels watching over us.
It's hard to believe you're gone,
And even harder to learn to cope with it.
Everyone knows you're in a better place, so all thats left for us to do is pray.
Driving down that curvery road, I drive a little slower every time I pass by the two blue crosses. The two blue crosses that mark the spot where two lives were taken that fateful night.
The two blue crosses in remembrance of two young, loving boys who just loved having fun.
I say a prayer in my head, knowing God is listening.
Your memory won't fade.
We won't let it slip away.
Your memory won't fade.
Your love won't slip away.
Weeks go by and life gets faster.
Some days are easier, others are harder.
I'm certain we all have guardian angels, and I know of at least two watching over a whole community.
Some nights are restless.
We miss your smile, we miss your laugh.
I can't wait to see it all again.
Two blue crosses remind me that life is short.
Two blue crosses remind me to hold on tight and love with all I have.
Two blue crosses make me want to be the best I can be at every given moment.
They make me want to make you proud.
Keep us safe like I know you will.
The two blue crosses won't let your memory fade"

DRAFT: Two Blue Crosses

Days keep going by. Some go faster, some seem slow.
And it's when long days like today come to a peaceful end that I know we have guardian angels watching over us.
It's hard to believe you're gone,
And even harder to learn to cope with it.
Everyone knows you're in a better place, so all thats left for us to do is pray.
Driving down that curvery road, I drive a little slower every time I pass by the two blue crosses.
The two blue crosses that mark the spot where two lives were taken that fateful night.
The two blue crosses in remembrance of two young, loving boys who just loved having fun.
I say a prayer in my head, knowing God is listening.
Weeks go by and life gets fast. Days are easier, others are tougher.
I'm certain we all have guardian angels, and I know of at least two watching over a whole community.
Two blue crosses remind me that life is short.
Two blue crosses remind me to hold on tight and love with all I have.
Those two blue crosses make me want to be the best I can be at every given moment.
They make me want to make ya'll proud.

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I think about you daily and I know youre in a better place. I pray for your family and all of the friends you left behind. I know youre happy and watching down on everyone. I know we'll all see you again one day. There will most certainly be a party in Heaven and I dont think the angels will know what to do with all the noise.
R.I.P. Reagan Hardy & Mariano Virata.
We love and miss you.

"You dont get to choose how youre going to die, or when. You only decide how youre going to live. NOW."

In 6th period yesterday a group of us were talking about how there are alot of people who are REALLY mean to another kid who had been absent yesterday. A freshman made the point that made me think. She said, "you guys really need to be nice because no one knows what someone else goes through on a daily basis." Typically I keep my mouth shut when people are "debating" things in class, but this I felt too strong for to just keep quiet when a kid said that when they tease him they're only kidding around. Whether or not you're kidding, you never know how someone else takes jokes. It all comes down to the idea that we all need each other to get through life. WE don't know when we are going to be taken from the Earth or how we will go. The only thing we can even truly control is our own actions and how we would treat the others around us. That's the only thing we can ever really do. My challenege lately has been to be someone that would make others proud. Be who I am and be happy to be who I am. It really does make life a little simpler and more pleasant to deal with. Sure there will always be things that try to break you down to your very core, but you just have to keep trucking to get past it. Like today, I've felt completely lost, unhappy, dizzy, shakey, and sick but I'm doing the best I can to use every effort within me to finish out the day. There will also be little reminders all the time of things that are tough to think about. For example: (because some of us are dealing with this right now) the loss of a loved one.

Great advice from a friend of mine: Learn to love the little reminders of those we love who have gone on to be with Jesus. It keeps their memory alive within us. [that's paraphrased from what she had said]
^< I'm slowly learning how to do that, and I think it may make some things easier. I think that it's when days that are super long (such as yesterday and today) that I don't think will ever be over with come to a peaceful end where I can rest my head and be happy to be the person that I am, that's when I am CERTAIN we all have a gaurdian angel up there watching over us. Everyday, it never fails, I think of Reagan on the way to lunch. I miss the smiles and the random "HELLO!"s in the hallway. But those are the "reminders" that keep the memory within me. Those are the type of reminders that keep the fact of how amazing of a person he was alive.

As for now, I'm ready to see where life takes me. Graduation is in 27 school days and I couldn't be more excited and anxious at the same time. A new chapter in my life is about to unfold and I am so ready. COME ON LIFE!, I welcome you with open arms.

I want things to go right...

I did what I know will be the right thing today. I don't know how to explain it just yet, but I do know it was the right thing. I hope you understand. If not now, one day. "You can't make your heart feel something it won't." I'm sorry and I feel horrible, but I do know that in the end if I'm not happy then it wasn't even going to be fair to you.

Other things just don't seem to be going right either. I just feel so packed with all these things I need to get done by a deadline. I keep hoping that I finish everything before their individual deadlines.

I'm losing people. Partly by choice, partly cause I have no clue what's going on. Sure it's my fault. Oh well.

I switched colleges. Anxiety city has been my life. Since Friday.

Yipee.

Just a bit of things. I'll figure it out in time. We'll see how this all works out.


"God doesn't choose the equipped. He equips the chosen."